Single on Purpose

SINGLE ON PURPOSE

A book by John Kim

1/4/26

I’ve started this book at least 3 times in the past and never finished it. 

One of my goals this year is to read more.

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I have been single since 2017.  Not that I haven’t “looked” but quite honestly, the last 9 years have been a bit of a whirlwind that my focus has been on healing and survival. 

My last relationship lasted slightly over 2 years.  I knew from the beginning it wasn’t a healthy relationship, but yet I stayed in it as long as I did because it was nice “having someone’. 

It started with lies, lack of trust, stealing from me, taking advantage of me, punching holes in my walls, smashing anything that had sentimental value all while  I was taking care of his sorry ass every time he lost a job (which was quite often). 

I prayed to God to give me strength to remove this man from life. 

Every time I kicked him out, I allowed him back again because I felt sorry for him. 

Perhaps I hated being alone too.

Then one day I heard a voice in the background of one of his snapchat videos where his coworkers told him to ….”Use that old white bitch”.   (Did I also mention he was many years younger than me.) He denied it by saying it wasn’t about me but fortunately a few weeks later he left to become a stripper (swear to God). 

Beginning of 2018, I got saved and was living life like a good Christian. Going to church, becoming active in my church, living a Christian life with a purpose.

At the end of 2018, he failed not only as a stripper but his multiple other jobs in another state, that he moved back to the area.  My dumb ass allowed him to sleep on my couch as he was closer to his new job (one that I got him). 

2 months later, I found  out that he tried to make moves on my (now adult) daughter and completely lie about it.  I gave him two options:  calling the police to have him removed or put him in a mental institute.  He chose the mental institute. 

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At the beginning of 2019, I decided to start fresh and give up my apartment and rent a bedroom instead.  I was tired of taking care of people and needed to put myself first.

I was full time self-employed massaging and working part time at an architect firm.

By early summer, I had an opportunity to work at a domestic violent shelter. 

I thought this is what God wanted me to do next. 

I also agreed to take on a job at a barber shop that is nearly an hour from where I was living at the beginning of 2020.  I thought this was a great opportunity to network and maybe consider moving to the ‘country’ in the future. 

Looking back, I shouldn’t have taken the job at the shelter. With my (then) lack of boundaries and always wanting to help, I lost my mind, I lost myself and I felt more confused in life than ever before. 

May I also add that having a world-wide pandemic at the time didn’t help me mentally, physically and emotionally.

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By the end of 2021, I was no longer working at the shelter. I also quit the architect job to become full time at the barber shop.  I moved in with my daughter and stepson and I can honestly say my living situation has been awesome.  Still an hour from the country, but I have no regrets.

Though it’s been tough building a clientele where people still look at massage as a luxury (I get it because I was once that person too),  but I do have some solid regulars.  The struggle is having a steady work schedule.  With that being said, I’m fortunate I still have some personal clients and taking on pet sitting jobs near my job.

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Reading ‘Single on Purpose’ will help me become a better version of myself. 

John Kim says “I need to build a better one with myself before I could build anything healthy and meaningful with anyone else.” 

“Take advantage of the time you’re unattached to explore you. Your patterns.  Your definitions.  How you love and why.  Your dreams.  The dent you want to make in this world.  You must explore your relationship with self.  YOU MUST BE WITH YOURSELF FIRST.”

“Singlehood isn’t just about being single.  Singlehood is about being a whole person.”

“A thriving relationship is one in which two whole people come together and do life WITH each other, not at or around each other.”

“When  you start working on yourself instead of just focusing on who you’re going to love, the universe will work through you to make your story bigger than you.  Then when you meet someone who deserves you, you will only bring more to the table as a whole person who is going somewhere.”

“Your journey never ends.  It just changes as you change.  The journey only happens if you decide to go on it.  There is a call to action.  If you decide not to embark on the voyage, you will always live in the past.  You will stay muted. Angry.  Miserable.  Incomplete.”

“Should you decide to take this call, your relationship with yourself will strengthen and you  will take ownership of your life.  You will evolve and start living closer to your truth and potential.  Your whole outlook will change, and great things will happen. Things you would not have seen with your old outlook.”

And that is only the introduction.

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I do know I am in better head space.  I’m in a safe environment where I do not have stress, toxicity or worry.

I have been working on myself for the last several years, mentally.  However, I have let my health deteriorate and it shows.  This year, as a promise to myself, I am going to get physically healthy. 

I also want to be a better Woman of God. 

According to AI: A woman of God is defined more by her inner character and actions – like faith, kindness, wisdom, humility and service – than by outward appearance, reflecting her deep relationship with God through a gentle and quiet spirit, a love for His word, and a commitment to honoring Him in her words and deeds, embodying strength and dignity (Proverbs 31).  She’s characterized by her heart for God and others, showing Christ’s love through compassion, integrity and perseverance, even amidst challenges.

As I walk in my faith, I know God has a purpose for me.  Getting myself physically in shape will allow me to handle what He is about to give/show me! 

Going into 2026 with an open mind, feeling better about myself and letting Christ lead me is exactly where I need to be if I should find a Godly Husband.

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GOALS AND REFLECTION 2026

GOALS AND REFLECTION 2026

12/29/25

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

Philippians 4:13

As I sit here thinking about my 2026 goals, I’ve realized how much I have lost myself in the last 6 years.

Then I got to really thinking and realize, well, I’ve lost myself more than 6 years ago. 

Can’t tell you exactly when I lost myself but I can tell you that I haven’t been well for many years.  Mentally. Physically.  Emotionally.  Spiritually. 

If I just start with the last 6 years of my life, I can tell you my body has been in flight or fight. 

I started a new job right February 29, 2020.  Literally right before the pandemic.  Working at a DV shelter and part time for an architect firm.  I quit the architect firm to put more focus at the shelter (because I thought that is where God wanted me to be at the time) while also building a new clientele in an area that is mostly blue collar and massage is consider a luxury.  Its also in a barber shop. 

A year after the pandemic, I started having health issues physically and mentally.  I saw a lot of doctors over a 4 month period: rheumatologist cardiologist, neurologist, MRI, CT Scan.  In the end most health issues were induced by stress.  Physical and psychological. I was definitely a hot mess at that time.   Not long after that, I got fired from the DV shelter because I lost my sh*t on a client and kids for not following the rules.  SMH. A moment I am not proud of. 

I moved in with my kids and literally hit the road running. Working a 10 hour day. Most days are a 50-60 minute commute (one way).  Some nights can be 90 minutes.  The longest time was 2 hours, 10 minutes but that was during construction on the express lanes and there was a really bad accident on the regular lanes. 

The last several years I have been in a mode of survival and making sure I can pay my bills.  I don’t make nearly what I used to working independently or for a high end spa closer to the city.  I am legit just surviving some days.

I also picked up a pretty good side hustle by watching people’s pets.  It’s less than 10 minutes from work and I am saving gas.  I don’t have to witness daily accidents or keep up with the crazy drivers and pray you don’t get run over.

I’m good about making sure I’m good financially, but personally, I am struggling. 

I don’t have a social life.  Not because I don’t want one.  One, because I don’t have the time to have one and two, I don’t want to make the time to have one. I’ve grown comfortable in my little bubble and been hyper focused on just going to work and going home.  On repeat, often. 

I am sometimes exhausted at the end of the day, the last time I want to do is be social.  Honestly, there are days I sit more than I do work, so the stagnant physical position has messed up, mentally.  Physically – well, it shows.  53pounds in 4 years.  Scary.

Definitely not who I used to be. Nor who I continue to want to be.

I’ve gone on some great trips over the last 5 years.  I went to see some people I have met over the last few years.  Spent some quality time with family.  Our family welcomed two great-nieces, one great-nephew and another great-niece/nephew on the way!!  There was also a period when my family and I weren’t talking for a bit of time (again).  My fault.  I have a big mouth.

I have met some incredible clients and a few that I now call friends.   I can say I have experienced country life (as an adult) and it very much reminds me of where I grew up.  Small town. Everyone knows each other.  20-25 minutes to go anywhere for shopping or decent food.  Sadly, it lacks diversity.  Except for Friday evenings at the local Food Lion lol (inside joke). 

So, this brings me to writing my goals for 2026. 

I know I need to make some changes in my life.  Major changes. 

I will make an intentional effort to DO better. 

An intentional effort to BE better. 

An intentional effort to make better choices. 

I want to experience life like I used to feel (free spirited). 

The person I used to be (adventurous, well-being, connective with people, disciplined, joyful). 

Mend some relationships I totally cut off.  I realize that’s how I handle embarrassment or shame.

I want to feel me again.  Making wiser choices regarding food and being disciplined to working out again.  Work on becoming more social again and spend quality time with family and friends. 

This post is my affirmation to being healthier, happier and the best version of myself. 

I also know it’s tougher doing it alone.  For me, the healthiest, most successful and encouraging way to achieve these goals are through disciple, will-power, support, encouragement from friends/family and through God.   

I am putting God first in everything I do. Though Him, I can do anything.  He has a purpose for me.  I just need to make the effort and work for it.  Continue to be guided by Him because I know He will not steer in the wrong direction.

I still have lots to learn.  I know I will still make mistakes.  That’s life.

Going through life with God makes me more encouraged to see where He takes me.

I have a PURPOSE.  Only He knows what it is!!

I am HERE for it all!

Autoimmune disease. Overcoming life situations. Hey, I didn’t cry today!

Autoimmune disease and life situations can make a person crazy.

Some days can be heavier (mentally) than others.  Physically its hard to say. Every day is a new day.    

My writings are random and very all over the place.  Sometimes that is how my brain works.  I hope to consistently make an effort to write something, every day.  Even if it’s just a hello.

At the end of the day – we’re all just surviving.   Some of us barely hanging on.  Life is hard.  Faced with challenges. Faced with the enemy some days. 

You’re working on overcoming what you have just become.  And some of if it is hard pill to swallow knowing we worked hard to get to that point to only recognize that we’re wounded the whole time.  Keep giving just so they stay and we’re not alone.  We allowed things to happen.  That’s for discussion at a later time. 

We have to ask what we have learned.  How can we not make the same mistake moving forward.  Well guess what?  Some of us keep making the same mistake 2, 3, 5… over and over. 

Trust me.  One day you’ll be tired and want to take care of you.  And only you.  Only you can control how you feel. What makes you happy.  Not letting others actions or comments affect how we think of ourselves. 

Thanks for reading. I’m just here to write my thoughts so I don’t have to keep them in my head. And maybe open up for discussion.  I can’t be the only one feeling crazy.

May 1, 2024.

Going on day 5 of fasting.  Feeling energetic.  Mind is clear.  Open.  I even had a massage today to help detox. I made a batch of beet juice and drank some.   My stomach started gurgling during the massage.  Should be a good BM tomorrow.  About to do some lymph work on my body.  Its 2:10a.  I usually like to give myself 60-90 minutes and sometimes 2 hour massages.  I do not know how long I will do but I’ll at least get it focused on my bloated stomach. 

I had a great day.  Fell asleep at 3:30? 4a?  I am not even sure but woke up at 10:20a and I knew it was late but I did not realize it was that late.  Went to Cassie’s to have coffee.  Oil change, inspection, beet juice.  Danced on Cassie’s deck.  Repotted Lily and Eddie.  Lily actually had a good several enough to separate.  I gave Ju 1/3 of Lily and now she has Shazam in her room.

I do miss dancing.  I miss how it makes my whole body feel everything.  Music.  On beat.  Love me some dancing.  I am also trying to heal my body and get rid of toxins in my body. 

I am in pain most days.  My whole body aches.  Most of the time.  Most days. Nothing new.  I have been to Dr Lee, saw a Rheumatologist tell me it could be Lupas, it could anything.  Symptoms all overlap with each other.    

4.5 years and during that period the patient typically has seen four doctors.

I started all this in 2014-2015 when I started having aches and pains in my gut.  Nothing was flowing regularly.  Had a colonoscopy. Everything was fine.   I have always had gut issues.  My whole life.  Abdominal issues.  Pelvic issues.  Cancer cells in the endometrial lining of the uterus.  Hysterectomy in 2008.

Massaging in Tysons.  Personal clients.  Sex with one person.  Even though I knew I was not his only one.  He made that clear from the get-go when we started hanging out.  Life was good.  Actually, life was pretty great then. 

I was feeling good, physically and mentally I knew I was okay.  I did not have much drama in my life.  I’m doing okay.  Except when I actually pause and look at what I am feeling – I realize how much my system is not regular and my gut is not just off.  I started doing enemas. Amazing.  Painful.  Very painful.  It was the days later when you felt clear.  Free of toxins in the gut.  Feel free.  In your body and your mind is clearer.  Less heavy. These enemas are no joke.  They will have your body having tremors and sweating like you just a hot pepper and your asshole is on fire but I am telling you from my own experience that it helps me clean out my gut faster.  Is it healthy?  Some countries require it annually.  I used to do them frequently. 

End of 2015 is when I started feeling physical pain in my body.  I thought it was stress induced and I am sure most of it was because at that time I allowed a young man, half my age, to just move in with me. Have has friends there all the time.  Use my jeep.  Steal my money.  Lie to me.  I could go on for days. 

Yes, I allowed all that to happen because he brought me happiness.  We enjoyed our time together.  Well, at least he made me laugh and pee my pants 2x.  He made me feel sexy about myself and I loved his affection. 

I also realize I was coddling a grown man, not making him accountable for staying at my place.  Rent free for him.  Paid cell phone.  Ladies and gentlemen  – what we do for love. 

“What You Won’t Do for Love” ~Bobby Caldwell

Its ok. I have moved on.  I learned a lot about myself and had it not been for that relationship, I would not be in one with God.  Thank you Dre!  Without that relationship, I would not recognize the anger I have when people do me wrong.  Or make me think I am the crazy one.  I sir am not crazy.   Your just made I caught you at your own game.  Lies. Lies. Lies. 

I realize I was looking for man results in a boy.  I expected way too much and allowed way too much for what?  I cute nickname and a person to make me laugh.

I don’t know.

I can say today is the first day I am trying to eat better.  Start lymphatic drainage for the next 30 days.  Vitamin D3 and Vitamin K2.

Combined –helps with blood clotting, calcium metabolism, and healthy heart.  Bone health.  I’m getting older. I need to keep my bones strong. 

I need a healthy heart.  I need healthy arteries.  These two vitamins combined will help with all of this. 

I’m willing to try anything to feel better.  I’m sure my insides are not healthy.  They definitely aren’t on the outside.  I get sad when I look at my body.  How I “let myself go”.

Crazy because I was thinking about that phrase today… “Let myself go”.

I read an article on swimbikemom.com titled “5 Ways to Get a Grip When You’ve “Let Yourself Go”.  One of the questions was “How do we get a grip w hen we have let ourselves go?” and the response is as follows:

  1. Acknowledge the current state of things.
  2. Must offer up forgiveness and love to ourselves.
  3. We should make a list (or two).
  4. Take action – ANY TYPE OF ACTION
  5. Keep moving forward.

Helpful list:

What are three of my life’s goals?

What is MOST important to me?

What do I want to be remembered for?

Pretty good article. 

I just need to set routines and stick with them.  Discipline.  Stop being lazy.

Though I know am not lazy… I can be utilizing my downtime better and realize how much time in the day we kind of do have.

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Love your enemy… on purpose

I originally posted this on face book with a caption that read…. “the old me…” but in reality, I know me all TOO well that if a person from my past, (and we had significant history) and has possibly screwed me over a billion times and then I had to stop talking to certain people for my own health…. I probably still would help them.

I have few enemies but a handful of people I choose not to speak with on a daily basis, for protection of my own well-being (mentality, physically and spiritually). Being mistreated in any way does not deserve of my time.

At the end of the day, Love everyone, even those that have screwed you over or disappoint you time and time again.

Know your boundaries and somehow set an expectation if a person has a reason to ask you for help…. you have a choice to help but know that the person may still continue to disappoint you yet again…. actions speak loud but repetitive behavior speaks volumes.

Pray on it before making a move. God will not let you meet the devil twice…. you’ve changed or they have…. if God isn’t answering quick enough… go with your gut, instincts never lie.

[**Way too much time on my hands and been thinking about a lot of stuff… 🙄😓]

Ephesians 4:31-32 – Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

Coronavirus & Domestic Violence… finding our purpose

Working at a DV shelter has made me more aware of how much this coronavirus is having a bigger impact on how we work in a non-profit domestic violence shelter.
 
Times like this, domestic violence has definitely heightened but we also need to use precaution on making sure every individual is not carrying the virus.
 
We are taking this into consideration as one of our first lines of defense in helping these women (and children) find safety from their abuser.
 
We have a great deal of resources and a community that has been amazing in supporting our needs in the DV community.
 
We may be a small staff, but we are MIGHTY in our ability to to provide services and direction to those leaving an abusive situation.
God directed me several times to work within the DV community.  Last year I took an opportunity and without a doubt, I know MY PURPOSE is greater than I could ever imagine.
 
Asking God to continue to provide and protect the staff, the clients and the community as we diligently work together to service those in need. In Jesus’ Name. Amen. ❤️🙏
#DomesticViolence #DV #coronavirus #coronavirus2019 #covid19 #praying #DVMinistry

Dear God, I’m placing 2020 in your hands… on purpose no

Couldn’t sleep last night so I decided to just write.

I found this quote the other day and thought to myself, why not leave 2020 up to God, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain through his guidance and protection.

Dear God, I’m placing 2020 in your hands… on purpose.

I  have found that leaving the choices of my future to you, will more than likely be the better than most of the choices I could come up with for myself this year.  LOL

I know you have my back at all times.  I know you will not stray me down paths that you wouldn’t see has a purpose for my future. 

Even during times of trials, I will not question why.

I’m exhausted trying to figure out what it is that I am supposed to be doing with my life.

Trying to figure out who is really in my corner of life. 

Tied of fake people.

Tired of head games.

Tired of those that are comfortable being repeat offenders of hurting the souls of the people they once said they loved.

This year, I know I will be happier.

This year, I know I am in a better place mentally, physically, emotionally and most important spiritually.

I know, FOR ME, the only way I can be all these things, are through YOU. 

I’ve failed miserably when I tried to do things on my own. 

I’ve failed miserably when I didn’t ask You first on how to handle situations.   I didn’t know I could ask you personally for guidance or strength.  I didn’t know the kind of relationship I could have with You.

I’d be the one that would jump in the pool, head first without looking and not realize there was no water in the bottom of the pool.  At least that is how I think some of my past looked.

You become numb to the pain.

Learn to build walls up around yourself.   It is safer this way. 

You don’t want to share your life because its not where you thought you’d be or “should be” (according to the haters).

The constant let down of others begin to feel like a thickening around the heart and often the mind.  Like scar tissue.  Layer upon layer of constant ‘beating’. 

2019 set me up to see the future a little clearer.  A year of understanding boundaries and a release of those I had a hard time forgiving.  Letting go of the baggage that once kept my mind a prisoner.

I’m still not ok with how easy it was for people to be shady, disrespectful, lie, cheat and make others look like they’re the crazyones.    

I’m not ok with people hurting people, deliberately and intentional. 

I’m not ok with people doing things out of spite, knowing the repercussion it could cause or the pain and hurt it can cause to others.  But yet comfortable to continue to do it any way.

I know that this year will be even better than the last few because I’m becoming a better version of me each day.

2020 has me in attention to focus on YOU and leave everything up to You.

In Jesus’ Mighty Name! Amen!

#2020 #protection #guidance #allday #everyday #god #jesus #prayer #transformation #resolution #healthymind #healthylife #thankful #peace #love #happiness #live #laugh #life #lifeofchallenges #patience #happiness

GET OUT OF BED… ON PURPOSE

IG Credit & inspired by @blacklovepage

Don’t beat yourself up if you didn’t get any further this year like you hoped.

Even if you accomplish getting out of bed some days, it’s still progress. Life is hard. You’re given twists and turns and trials and tribulations. Whew, that’s a lot!

Maybe you had some set backs this year based on people, finances, jobs, health…. you know…. LIFE!

Don’t beat yourself up. Know tomorrow is another chance to try again. Not today, but maybe tomorrow you find a reason to get out of bed.

How about tomorrow you at least get a shower. Maybe step outside and see what the weather is like.

Know that people love you. Know that only YOU can make a change. Only YOU can make an effort. I know some days it feels like everything is crashing around you. Guess what?

IT IS!!! Life is too short. Stop beating yourself up over failures. It happens.

GIVE YOUR TROUBLES AND SADNESS TO GOD IF YOU CANT MOVE PAST THIS SEASON ON YOUR OWN.

🙏🏽❤️

#findyourpurpose

#mentalhealthawareness

#giveittogod #life #struggleisreal #jesuslovesyou #godloveseveryone #evenyou #faith #foreverfindingpurpose

Love hurts sometimes… on purpose

Some people are hard to love because of their past. Even love is not enough to help heal them and the only thing they know how to do is continue to hurt those that love them. Pray for them to heal in every way possible.

On the flip side, those feeling the pain by these hurt individuals, know you can’t save them all the time. Know that even though you continue to give and give with love and trying everything to save them, know they might not want YOU to save them. Know your limits. Set your boundaries of how much pain one can continue to endure over and over again.

Hurt individuals need to acknowledge they have a problem and get help in finding where their pain stems from.

Trauma and pain from the past haunt almost every relationship going forward.

Did you know trauma can affect someone as young as 6 months old? I learned this a domestic violence class this past summer. The only way to reverse trauma is therapy, self love, a great support system, minimal drama, a safe and healthy environment.

Incidents from the past will definitely play a huge part most of their adult life. And most relationships will not end in a good way.

If you really want to love those that hurt, get them the help to heal to free themselves of the pain they have felt for many years.

THATS how you save someone who doest know how to love you back.

💔 Hit home on many levels. #mentalillness #hardtolove #pain #trauma #hurt #allreal #realtalk #heal #therapy #god #healthepast #getbetter #loveyourselffirst #seekhelp #doyourbest #stophurtingyourself #stophurtingpeople #youareworthit #love #loveyourself #healing

Timeline your life… on purpose.

Timeline your life… on purpose.

***very random blog. Creative writing tonight****

When you lay your history out on every event that you can remember, it makes it clear the happiest times was when I was around some pretty awesome people in my life during some really crappy times in my life.

I am thankful for my support system (near and far). Some I may not talk to regularly and a few I don’t talk to at all (for various reasons).

I do have a great support group that we all check in a couple times a week. Not daily. And that’s ok. (I don’t have the energy to talk to someone every day unless it’s my super close (handful) of friends (often referred to as my family)or if there was a significant other).

Other than that, I often become drained sometimes when I’m around tons of people, regardless if it’s me talking or even listening. I’m sensitive to what people tell me. And trust me, people tell me a lot. So I apologize to many I owe calls and messages. I’m not ignoring you… I’m just tired (mentally).

I say all this because one thing for sure…. if I needed ANYTHING, these people would have my back in a heart beat. Regardless if they know every detail of my life. They don’t try to tell me what I need to do and not do with my life. They believe in me. They believe in my path. They believe I do have a purpose. And… they love me unconditionally. ❤️🙏🏽 Can’t ask for a better place to be in my life ❤️💯

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Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for blessing me with this amazing journey of life… as I analyze certain areas of my past, it reminds me of some of the crappy things I’ve done to people or even screwed over.

Then seeing right in front of me why I made some of the decisions I did. The good. The bad. The ugly. The really ugly. It’s life.

I now know everything will be answered and some things will obvious. Some things will need personal forgiveness. And some straight forgiveness, even if I may never get closure… Im learning to rid of the toxic mind of my past that won’t leave and learn to let go of all that does not bring me happiness.

Thank you Lord for guiding me and protecting me during those tough times and giving me the ability to RELEASE all the things that have weighed me down for years.

Thank you Lord, for always having my back! From day one! 😂

In Jesus’ Name, Amen

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Now you know why the timeline…. on purpose.

And I feel better having someone help me get some of this information I’ve been storing for many many years, out of my mind….

…and perhaps one day all my personal info will be great resources for a documentary or even a comedy sitcom 😂 (Kidding not kidding) or just great information for others to learn from one day.

Either way, I have a lot to talk about. I know I can help others. I’m just gonna keep sharing what I know.

Use what God gave me (a gift to gab.) As well as learn from others. Set a good example for all.

Share the love God has given me with less fortunate. ❤️

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Write your own timeline out…

Find a person to talk to.

About everything. Friends can be the best therapy. And therapists. So can your hair dressers, barbers and massage therapists. 🙋‍♀️

Good night!

See IG post: @kerrieann10

#blessed #progress #takestime #stilllearning #babysteps #life #therapy #godsgotme #godsplan #dobetter #bebetter #thoughts #learnfrommistakes #letitgo #mylifeisastory #sitcom #drama #mystery #pgrated #imtheproducer #mosttalkative #nokidding #gifttogab #noregrets #massagetherapist #selfcare #friends #therapy#foreverfindingpurpose

11:11… on purpose

You’re funny God! I asked God earlier to give me a peace sign to show His way of letting me know I am doing ok…. and I’m doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing…. so, this is what He gave me… 11:11! 👍🏽 You are A funny man!!! I’ll take it!!! ❤️

Ok… You’re right… I do need to leave it in your hands. Thank you for giving me this evening to reflect on how great YOU really are. Keep guiding me where you see fit, giving me answers where I often questioned and thank you for light to areas I often would see in the dark. You are my light in more ways than one.

I know You have amazing things in store for me. I am excited every day to see where You, my Heavenly Father directs me.

I understand every trial and tribulation I have gone through has been with purpose. I know there will be many more to come but I am grateful for the ones you have given me because I have learned that with Belief, Faith, Hope and acknowledgement that Your Son, Jesus Christ, gave his life for ALL my sins and therefor HE is my Savior…. because of that…. I know YOU DO makes all things possible, including keeping me of sound mind during this trying week of the emotional sabotage I often put on myself from time to time.

I know I am strong. I know am worthy. I know I am capable of handling anything when He is by my side.

Thank you God!

In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

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